Friday, October 31, 2003

Triste Coeur

Yup, that's the name of the current song that I'm trying to master on the keyboard. It's just some romantic number by Richard Clayderman, written by Paul de Senneville. I am literally turning senile just by attempting to play it. Urgh. Reckon too high aspirations? Seems like a simple track to play though. Why does it sound so different on the audio and on my piano?! I think I definitely need more practice. And maybe a dash of miracle?

Sean complained that this place is just another complain forum whereby I lash out mercilessly day after day about my miserable life. Ironic. But it's the bloody whole truth! Ain't it? After all, my life canvas isn't filled with dashing colours or vivid pictures. It's still rather plain and white, and definitely in need of a colour overhaul. But I always believe that imperceptibly it'll colour in by itself.

Gv complained @ 8:34 PM

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Sunday, October 26, 2003

Maybe...?

Perhaps I should really pull a sickie. My nose's stuffed up now and I can't breathe properly. Oh damn. This is so bloody frustrating. I just hate it when my primary body functions break down.

Reading a book by former Sleeper lead singer Louise Wener. She's become an author! Not that I know her very well or at all. I've never heard a single Sleeper hit in my life. But then again, there're many things in life that one has never heard of, right? This just happens to be one of them. But anyway, her debut novel seems like a hit. I'm sorta hooked to the pages, though I'm only like one tenth on my way through the whole thing. At least I'm taking a break from my girly girl books (Sean lingo, that is). LOL.

I reckon my nose's gonna fall off soon, from all that tedious rubbing and sniffing. Urgh.

Gv complained @ 3:13 PM

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Saturday, October 25, 2003

Kill Me!

I've just finished watching Kill Bill Volume 1, (downloaded of course, given the lame-ass RA rating here!) and surprisingly the quality was quite exceptional. It was some screener copy (whatever that meant), and I must say that I was rather impressed. I've never been a fan of Quentin Tarantino, (I don't even know who he is until this movie. Haha.) but his directional techniques are totally unique and out of the box. I guess there's something for everyone here, from black and white scenes to animation, blah blah blah... Though I don't really dig violence and all that blood and gore, and the movie being rather straightforward (just Uma Thurman getting her revenge by tracing down past assassins), it still nevertheless had me griping to my seat. Now that's a rarity, given that I seldom or almost never watch movies on my computer in one sitting. I'm easily distracted, and I always have other programs running in the background. But this time, I didn't flinch a bit. I just sat there and watched the whole 2 hours of the bloody (pun intended) movie! Now that's an achievement. Standing ovation, anyone? *raises brow*

Speaking of violence and high-risk activities, I'm supposed to go for this stupid Advanced Obstacle Course this coming Tuesday. Not that I'm acrophobic whatsoever, but somehow the idea of doing dangerous stuff doesn't really appeal to me that much. Okay, to speak the truth, it doesn't at all. But I've got no choice, have I? I can't possibly pull a sickie at the last minute. It'll be so damn obvious, and the last thing I want is to draw attention to myself. I'd rather keep an average profile in the army, if you know what I mean. Anyway, as I was saying, the AOC consists of... I don't know! Just heard from friends that one of the obstacles includes jumping down from the 2nd storey with people holding a safety net to catch your fall. (Sounds simple, no? Reminds me of Carrie in the SATC episode "The Catch". LOL) Basically people are telling me it's just something to boost and test your confidence. And most importantly, they say it's fun. Really? Cynicism building itself into my blood. But then again, it's already there, isn't it? Maybe it's building its defenses. Whatever.

I so need a shower. Out.

Gv complained @ 9:26 PM

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Friday, October 24, 2003

Narrowed Eyes Day

Okay. Friendster was f***ed up this morning, and it still is now. It's been one whole bloody damn day. A friend supposedly added me, and it's still not shown in my friends list. And I tried to update my profile countless times earlier, but to no avail. After I hit the 'save' button, it still reverts back to the old page. Darn. *breathes out exasperately*

Going back to camp today. How interesting can that get? I'm having a penchant for buying books today. No apparent reason. The only problem is... I can't decide. This is always the time when I'd give anything for an unlimited supply of credit.

Gv complained @ 5:31 PM

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Thursday, October 23, 2003

Pursed Lips Day

This is so darn frustrating. I don't know whether it's the drive or the disc, but I can't seem to burn Sean's CD. I've already wasted 2 CD-Rs and I've decided to give one final attempt by purchasing another CD sometime this week. If it fails again, I guess I'm gonna have to disappoint. Perhaps my writer's too old or...??!!! Damn! It worked fine with the CD-RW! I'm on the verge of giving up. Not that I really relish burning CDs now that I've got an mp3 player. But if doing a friend a favour is so bloody difficult, I'd rather give up. *hmph*

On another note, chatting with friends on Friendster, etc has made me realise just what a hermit I am. Damn. I feel so self-depreciated, really. Chatted with Minlee today, and I found out that she's now working as some architectural designer (or whatever the position) and she gets to go to Shanghai once a month! It's to do with the current project that she's undertaking. And she's complaining that she won't stay on the job for long, what with aspirations to get to uni, etc, etc. But I'm thinking, that girl is really doing something worthwhile with her life. At least she gets all these perks like overseas allowances, experience, what have you. And what am I doing? I don't even wanna mention it.

Lighter note. Lighter note. My mum bought cheesecake (yum!) again. It's not one puny slice, but the whole cake itself. Hmmm.. at least I have food to satisfy me at the moment.

Song: Stefanie Sun - Kai Shi Dong Le ("I'm Beginning To Understand")

Gv complained @ 9:07 PM

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Sunday, October 19, 2003

Cold turkey

Oh no! At the moment I'm addicted to Friendster!!! Help! There's just this perverse thrill at looking at other people's pages and pictures and posting comments. Haha! But I reckon I'll get over it soon enough. I'm just such a capricious person and such cheap thrills don't grab my attention for long. I guess I'm just enjoying it while it lasts.

Sean and Jo didn't go to my church today. I expected that since they were going to some lounge birthday party last night and didn't get home till about 5am. But what I didn't get was why Fen's ex bf didn't go for the service with us today. Fen said it's cuz he's feeling sorta intimidated by so many of my friends going for the service. I'm like HUH??? Not that I'm enthusiastic or desperate for him to join us. I'd rather prefer it... Oh forget it. Turned out, he did go for the service. Alone. We met him after it ended. I really do not wanna comment much on that.

Met a tired Sean for lunch at Toa Payoh after. We went to posh Crystal Jade. Haha.. Champagne taste on a beer budget. LOL. Anyway, I rediscovered a hidden passion for Chinese food, thanks to Piggie. After all, I'm Chinese. So it's the right thing to do. Duh??! But I'm not all for embracing my Chinese roots, YET. (Maybe I should use never? But it's too strong a term.) I think Chinese food shall settle for now.

Yippee. The Hindus are celebrating Deepavali this Friday, which naturally translates to a holiday for moi! I've still got my block leave to clear on Thursday which means I can go home on Wednesday evening! Hallelujah! Let's just hope there's no last minute shitty duty for me whatsoever. The only negativity is that we gotta go back on Friday night for some lame-ass run on Saturday morning. What a senseless waste of time! *rolls eyes* Anyway, I still can't wait!

Gv complained @ 6:12 PM

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Saturday, October 18, 2003

Dated

I can't believe I've missed out on the great benefits of Friendster.com for so long. I mean, I just discovered that most of my friends are on it except moi! But not to worry. I've jumped onto the wagon with determined vengeance. I've registered, I've asked/invited friends, and I know that before long I'll be off and running! A tad bit of ironic optimism for this cynic. Hah.

Speaking of lateness, I've just sent my application for a debit card today. Another tad of optimism. Soon I'll be able to purchase stuff over the net and enjoy discounts when I dine and shop! I just hope that I'll be able to curb my spending desires and not sign away my whole bank balance!

Sean and Jo said they are coming to visit my church tomorrow... kinda surprising for me. Oh well.

Gv complained @ 9:33 PM

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Sunday, October 12, 2003

Let's do it again.

The weekend was great. Met Sean, Jo and Fen last evening for dinner at Baker's Inn at Paragon Orchard, and it was wonderful. Didn't quite enjoy my pasta (linguine V-something) though, cuz it was too spicy and soupy and watery. I won't order such spicy stuff in future, especially when it comes to foreign cuisine. Dessert was great too. Had a parmesan ice-cream thingy with poached pears. Unique taste. Especially with the somewhat salty, cheesy ice-cream with little parmesan flakes in it. After dinner, the gals left while Sean and I walked around, doing some window shopping. Can't believe the stuff that I so wanted to buy. Clothes from FCUK, Seed, shoes, etc, etc... even books from Borders. Drawback: We're all on a budget. Ironically, we've decided to go karaoke singing at K-Box next Saturday, which naturally means more money needed. Sigh.

Today, Fen and I and her ex bf went to church, and we had lunch at this new place called Soupworks, where they serve great soup with a free flow of bread. We all had clam chowders, loadsa baguettes, yellow rice, and I had a ham and cheese sandwich while the other 2 shared a baked potato. Mmmm... definitely returning to that place again in the future. Drawback: I had a stomachache soon after. Must be the clams. I had clams yesterday (in the linguine) and today. Too much I guess? Anyway, thank God I'm fine now.

Returning to camp tonight. (What else is new, right?) SOC this Friday. I am so going to pass it this time round. God help me.

Gv complained @ 4:48 PM

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Friday, October 10, 2003

Budget

Irony. Today's pay day and I'm on a tight budget. No elaboration needed, I think.

Outcamp run at Marina City Park tomorrow. Shitty. Damn far and I gotta wake up early to get there, run a few kilometres, and then head home. How exciting is that?

Oh, watched Underworld last night. Didn't meet up to my expectations. Felt like watching a black and white film, cuz the setting was in the night throughout. Think there might be a sequel, with the inconclusive conclusion. At least it was a weekday. Saved $1 on the movie ticket. Hah, some consolation.

Meeting Sean, Joanna and Fen for dinner/movie tomorrow evening. At least something to look forward to.

Gv complained @ 8:20 PM

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Monday, October 06, 2003

Poignancy

What's this about my "fetish" for poignant movies these days? I finished watching The Hours yesterday, and I just completed Far From Heaven. Julianne Moore is fantastic, though juxtaposing both movies, she's looks the same. Perhaps it's cuz her characters in both movies both live in the same era. 1951 Los Angeles for The Hours, and 1957 Hartford for Far From Heaven. The dressing, hairstyle and even speech are more or less similar. (like duh?) Anyway, both shows were wonderful, and they raised quite a lot of insightful issues like depression, suicide, child abandonment, homosexuality, racism, status discrimination, etc. A real, welcoming change from the usual SATC episodes that I'm always watching. Not that SATC is off my favs list. It's still right up there, on the highest priority ever possible.

It's off again to camp tonight, though I'm feeling quite serene. First of all, I've cleared my IPPT, so there won't be an omni-present fear that I'll flunk this static station or my running, whatsoever. I'm currently left with stupid SOC, though that's not in the program this week, so no cause for worries there, at the moment. And a piece of congratulatory news for myself. There's an out-camp run this Saturday at Punggol, which means a long weekend on Friday. Can't wait. And there's also the probability that I'll be meeting Sean and Joanna on Saturday for catch-up. Hmmm... I guess I'll just lie back and watch this week happen.

Oh, I'm downloading Vanilla Sky at the moment. Most probably watching it over the weekend. Another poignant film?

Out.

Gv complained @ 5:28 PM

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Sunday, October 05, 2003

Dropping dead... soon

Okay, I'm officially home after dreadful guard duty for the whole of yesterday and I'm completely zonked out. Effectively I only had 2 hours of sleep for the whole of Saturday. Moreover I was assigned to be the stupid sentry. Which means no skiving and having to stand at this lame-ass cubicle for 8 hours in total. In addition, scheming platoon mates added on to my misery yesterday. I shall not elaborate.

On to happier news. I obtained a Silver award for my IPPT! I was actually on the course for Gold, but alas my running wasn't up to the highly ridiculous standard set by Mindef. I know I've clocked better timings before, but weeks of no training have left permanent rust stains on my calf muscles. Rather difficult to remove at such short notice. The "creaking" is still very much present at this point of time. In fact, my whole body is aching. Urgh. Anyway, thanks be to the Lord for such an incredible perfomance after a 2 month hiatus of not training physically.

I'm off to my bed for my little nap. Gonna watch The Hours (DVD Rip, exceptional quality) later tonight. Woo.

Gv complained @ 1:21 PM

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Wednesday, October 01, 2003

Silver

I've got this dreaded IPPT this Friday (or tomorrow, as some of my platoon mates said) and I'm not physically or mentally prepared. Actually it's more of the physical aspect. The worrywart syndrome in me is going haywire just thinking and thinking about the outcome. Confidence level just plummeted to an all degree low. Maybe reaching the South Pole to visit the penguins.

I so need God's miracle right now.

Gv complained @ 2:54 PM

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