Wednesday, December 24, 2003

Mood: Indifferent
Song: Christina Aguilera - The Christmas Song (Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire)

Phew, it's X'Mas Eve today. Finally one of my favourite days of the year has arrived. Though my family has never really celebrated X'Mas in its traditional methods, it still never fails to give me the spirit and mood to appreciate the meaning of Christmas. What am I babbling on about? Sounds kinda incoherent to me... Anyway, I am so wanting to be in a seasonal country right now, especially for the X'Mas holidays. Singapore is like so myopic and although the spirit is there when we stroll down Orchard Road, looking at the all too artificial decorations and nauseating bright lights, it is still very far from the real thing. I've never celebrated a white Christmas, and there's this urging in my heart to really want to know what it feels like. A day where family and close friends gather around the fireplace, feeling its warmth, exchanging presents under the tree, going carolling... I think I've watched too many films. Hah. But nevertheless, it is something that I wanna do, hopefully in the near future. I really need a Christmas away from Singapore.

It is also usually at this time of the year where I'll reflect on things I'd done for the whole year. Good, bad, cynical, you name them all, I have done them. There will be closures for some things, while others are still unsettled. All in all, I can say that 2003 has been quite an average year. I know for the country itself, things have been on an overhaul this year, what with the economic downturn, SARS, the death of the Iranian twins who were joined at the head, etc. But selfishly speaking, all these things have never really affected me personally or directly. I merely led this life as per normal, doing things that I'm told to perform, going out with friends, doing mindless and frivolous stuff like shopping, reading trashy novels, downloading movies and songs, spending loads of money on useless stuff, blah blah blah... I can't bring myself to be more serious and face reality (like what some people said). Perhaps I've been in self-denial, I don't care. I just enjoy what I'm doing at the moment, and what can make me change? There're really some times when I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up. I'm not talking about death or anything for that matter, just sleep. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm talking about.

Received 2 Christmas cards from Ting and Rolaine today. Can't say I'm not surprised. There're still such people today who still do such things though we chat quite often. I guess I'd better pull up my socks and start doing such things soon. I've been using too much digital ink to spread holiday cheer and goodwill, and sometimes personalised handwritten cards are still the best. Perhaps I'll try it out for the upcoming Lunar New Year.

The year of trials and tribulations is gonna pass... I'm looking forward to a great 2004 where I'll end my stupid NS obligations and start uni life, and hopefully turn over a new leaf. Haha... LOL. A comedic conclusion to an otherwise, solemn post.

Gv complained @ 8:15 PM

{xoxo}

Sunday, December 21, 2003

Mood: Bordering between having nothing to do and feeling ill
Song: Mariah Carey - My Saving Grace

Had our annual X'Mas dinner at Val's place last night, and the food was great. For those out there who had the misfortune of not being able to attend, let me just tantalize your tastebuds with a short rundown of the dishes. Haha. We had the traditional roast turkey, of course. (Brought by moi after a lost bus trip to Tampines, and me having to take a cab through the mercilessly pouring rain and traffic congestion to Parkway Parade, just to collect a cold turkey.) Thank God Val had a microwave. There was also a dish called caramelized pumpkin which Mark-Kate made, potatoes and lots and lots of pasta salad. LOL. Hmmmm... food fit for more than 5 people.

Which brings an issue to mind. (Note: I am NOT complaining here, and I vehemently protest against any discrepancies!) Both Fen and Elaine cancelled out at the last minute, which sorta pissed us off a lil'. Elaine cancelled out on Wednesday, and Fen on the day itself at 11.38am. Darn. We'd already bought the food, etc, and were expecting payment from them. Tough and sensitive issue here. In the end, we managed to save some food for Fen, and got her to transfer her share of the cost to Jo. Sometimes I really wonder about our friendship and the closeness that we supposedly share. I admit that I am not equally close to each of my friends, but I thought that among this particular group of friends since Sec. Sch, we should be close enough to host a X'Mas dinner together, and not quit at the last minute. Apparently it's not the case. (I guess?) MK even said something about not inviting them next year. What's the point?

Slept over at Val's place after everything ended, and I'm sorta feeling kinda feverish now. Might be the red wine, or lack of sleep. I don't know, and I don't wish to find out. Right now I just wish to curl up in bed with a book of my choice, and indulge in my fantasy world. Matters of reality can wait another day.

Gv complained @ 4:49 PM

{xoxo}

Sunday, December 14, 2003

Mood: Having withdrawal symptoms
Song: Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You

Watched Love Actually on Tuesday, and it sorta gave me a fuzzy feeling about the spirit of Christmas. LOL. I just lurve such feelings!!! Downside was, I rushed all the way to Eng Wah to use my debit card to pay for the tix (cuz there was this buy one get one free cheapo promotion), only to be told that they were sold out. *faints* I ended up paying the normal rate, only to be seated in a lousy theatre with cramped seating and without consistent carpeting. If I'd known, I would have stayed at Jurong Point. Much better atmosphere there.

Met Minlee, together with Dewei on Thursday and walked around Bugis. Haven't seen her like in almost a year! Haha... still looked the same to moi though. Anyway, it was rather uneventful... though I satisfied my craving for KFC. LOL.

What else??? Oh yah, Weiting and I were having such a fun time all weekend laughing at someone on MSN! LMAO... She's such a lameass that's so musically inclined that she can blow the trumpet with just one finger! Shit, that metaphor didn't really sound right, did it? Oh whatever.

I'm so looking forward to Christmas! But not New Year. Having guard duty on New Year's Day itself. Damn... I'm actually counting down in camp.

Gv complained @ 4:34 PM

{xoxo}

Sunday, December 07, 2003

Mood: Tired
Song: Sugababes - Too Lost In You

Quick update. Had mobilisation yesterday, and worked till almost 11pm! Urgh... There'd better be some off planned or something. I burnt my darn Saturday for nothing!!!

Met Mary-Kate & Jo today for a cuppa coffee today (hot chocolate for moi!), and I realised how much I missed this kinda lifestyle, especially when I was stuck in camp the whole week all the way till almost Sunday! Thank God this coming week is a shorter one compared to the last. I'm so looking forward to my long weekend on Friday!

Oh yeah, I passed my ICCT, but the end result? Whole body aches, and I can't turn my head for more than 45 degrees in all directions. Damn.

Watching Love Actually on Tuesday!!! Jo and MK were raving about that show today and I had to shush them to stop them from revealing the plot! Oh yeah, I'm gonna pay for the tickets with my debit card, cuz it's a buy one ticket get one ticket free thingy. Cheapo!!! Haha!

Alright. Gonna go back to camp soon. Dad's not driving moi today! Urgh.

Gv complained @ 8:26 PM

{xoxo}