Friday, January 30, 2004

Mood: Anticipative
Song: Point Of Grace - You'll Never Walk Alone

LOOOOOONNNNNG week. I was so like desperate to go home during the course of it cuz I can't stand being in camp for a second longer... Ah, the CNY long holiday mood was still lingering around in me, and it just can't seem to dissipate. Hmmm, anyway it's Friday and I've a long weekend, so why am I complaining? And Monday's a public holiday!

Let's see. Watched The Last Samurai with Minlee on Monday. Spectacular film I must say. Kinda drew out my feelings about pride, honour, tradition, blah blah blah. Haha, but definitely not towards S'pore. Urgh. Somehow I sorta identify with the movie, what with the loss of culture after the wiping out of the samurais and the refusal of the samurais to adapt and assimilate into the new Westernized world of Japan. Watched Goodbye Lenin! with Sean last night and I guess it's sorta thematically linked to TLS, with the abolishment of communism and a new Westernized era in Berlin. Pity I missed the first 10 minutes or so, due to some shitty fault with the MRT. It was practically stopping for 10 minutes at every bloody stop because of some stupid fault, and I got so pissed off, I bumped my knee and cut my ankle while rushing up the escalator to the theatre. Damn! I really felt like asking the inefficient LTA for compensation! Imagine if I was rushing to some event that cost tons and tons of dollars??! Hmph. I shall not talk about it anymore. It just makes my blood boil to just think about it.

Gv complained @ 10:48 PM

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Saturday, January 24, 2004

Mood: Laid Back
Song: Sun Ho - Smiling Eyes

My Love Test Results
1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she
loves you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is insecure.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.

Hmmm... no comments there whatsoever. But perhaps the last thread is true, about me being quite self-centered. Haha... definitely. Perhaps not in love, but definitely in my day-to-day workings with people. I know it's wrong, but I just can't help it, especially when my cynicism kicks in, and I've no choice but to diss people. LOL. Sometimes, some people really deserve it, don't you think?

CNY was a major letdown. Not only was there a drop in red packet earnings, the food this year wasn't that great either. Not to mention my mom wanting to leave my grandma's house early cuz she had her project to complete. Oh well, better luck next year I guess. Not that I really relish the CNY period. I don't really click with my relatives, and I don't like the crowds at Chinatown. I don't fancy hearing the CNY ditties cuz they're cheesy. I only love the red packets! HAHAHA... Oh well, give me X'Mas anytime!

Met Sean & Jo today for dinner and coffee at Blood Cafe at Paragon. Jo's leaving for Oz in like 3 weeks' time. I guess her days in SG are numbered. Hehe... oh well, I guess we'd better treasure our outings before she leaves. Cuz it'll then be just Sean & I, and sometimes a female perspective is crucial when we go out. LOL. We'll make do.

Oh yeah, Sean's like bugging us to go audition for the mosh pit thingy at the MTV Asia Awards. We went shopping earlier for his Fedora hat and clothes (hopefully, but it wasn't meant to be) to "impress" at the auditions. Oh please. Not that I'm being a spoiltsport, but I just don't feel that great an inclination to attend the awards. I mean, it's cool if I get the tickets, but if I don't, I won't sulk or pout or do anything stupid. After all, I don't even like half the artistes attending it! And sadly speaking, I doubt I can make it at the auditions. Haha... I can't imagine myself rapping or dancing to those hip-hop numbers. LOL. I can just envision people laughing their heads off. I don't care, it's just not my thing, I guess.

I've started re-reading my Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. I need to immerse myself into another world before I'm totally subdued by the current sucky one that I'm living in. Besides, it's also something else to do at home, especially when my mom is hogging my notebook and I can't access to the net!

I'm off to Hogwarts.

Gv complained @ 9:29 PM

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Monday, January 19, 2004

Mood: Lethargic
Song: Jay Chou - An Jing (Silent)

Last week was a rather tumultuous and tough one. There was the PATS inspection on Tuesday which dragged on for 3 consecutive days. Needless to say, the lack of sleep, last second rushing of documents, the inability to have nights off were all part and parcel of the entire inspection process. In the end, at least most of our efforts paid off. (I hope, cuz the result is still pending, but it'll definitely be much better than last year's.)

Then there came the lame-ass COC. Countless rehearsals and the ironically, I turned out to be a reserve for the parade. Damn! Should've skipped more rehearsals. But anyway I think the number of offs awarded (if any) will be the same, so I'm not shortchanged! Hopefully not.

Other than that, the weekend was kinda monotonous. Met MK for KBox yesterday and we sang till I spoilt the TV. LOL... Was singing this Expose number and due to it being quite an old track, the disc was kinda scratched (I think) and it caused the TV to hang! HAHAHA... Thankfully it was almost towards the end of our session so it didn't really matter. Or else our time would've been wasted. LMAO.

Met Gabriel a lil later on, and we went for coffee, and we shopped around town for clothes. But after going from Heeren to Far East, I still didn't manage to find a pair of pants that I fancied. Damn... I guess I gotta recycle some of my current bottoms for CNY. Or else, I might be making a last minute trip with Minlee tomorrow after I book out. I so hate last minute! Oh, and recently Peggy got in touch with me, and she's in Ontario now! Damn, I am so envious. It's always things like these that make me feel that my existence is bloody myopic. Nevertheless, Peggy's a dear and I won't say any more. Haha.

It's raining now, and perhaps it aptly describes my emotions at the moment. Life has never been more trite and mundane than it is now. But yet again, I am afraid of change sometimes. And I'll take a while to embrace the difference. Is change always good? I can't answer that.

Somehow my CNY mood's lost.

Gv complained @ 2:46 PM

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Sunday, January 11, 2004

Mood: Sleepy
Song: Sun Ho - Wo Jin (Holding On)

Let's see... the week that has just passed in retrospect, was one of the shittiest week this year. (Not that there were that many weeks to take count of, but oh well.) First, there was the political upheaval at work. It wasn't really my problem, nor did it really affect me in a direct way, but somehow or rather, you feel the repercussions after the whole issue has blown over. Vague? I don't really wish to dwell into it right now. Perversely I sorta enjoy the disruption. Work has never been more mundane and trite what with the PATS inspection this coming Tuesday, and I guess my brain just needs some drama and colour before it goes into total lame mode with no chances of retrieval.

There's still the total waste of time COC parade that's gonna take place this coming Saturday. Imagine standing under the bloody hot sun for stupid rehearsals that mean totally nothing. Welcome to the world of the absolute asinine. I just wish this whole thing would be over and done with. I totally loath sunburns, bruises on arms, sweating, carrying arms, foot and arm drills and most importantly, looking proud with pride on the parade square. Oh please. *rolls eyes incessantly*

Met MK for the Sun Ho concert yesterday. Haha... it wasn't supposed to be like that though. We were supposed to meet Jo to watch Mona Lisa Smile, but MK got tickets at the last minute, so we unfortunately cancelled out on Jo. And we've paid her back for the booked tickets, so I hope all's fine now, with no sore feelings whatsoever. I still can't find the darn movie to download on Kazaa!!! All I keep getting are tonnes and tonnes of fakes! This is so damn infuriating. Anyway, the concert was just so-so. At least she sang live and no lip-synching whatsoever. Oh, and Freddie went to the concert too. He got the same kinda tix as us (fan club tix valued at $0.00. LOL) and he got to sit in the front whereas MK and I were up there in the balcony seats! That is so unfair. But anyway, it's free (Or maybe worth $8.50? Wrong, it should be $8.75.) so I shouldn't be complaining. New Year Resolutions!! LMAO.

This upcoming week is gonna be another shitty one. I can just feel it. No long weekend, minimal nights off, long crappy hours in camp doing rehearsals... I wish my life could be better.

Oh yeah, must find out from Suin Yung or Joseph about the chocolate buffet at Roxy Hotel. Might be going with MK and company sometime soon. Ooh.. tantalising eat all you want chocolate!!!

Gv complained @ 5:54 PM

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Saturday, January 03, 2004

Mood: Accomplished
Song: Sugababes - Shape

Hmmm... met Minlee and Dewei for a short while this afternoon. We browsed around Kinokuniya before I met Jo and MK for coffee at Coffee Club Express. I so want Jo's phone!!! Argh!!! But unfortunately I'm not willing to part with my money right now. Haha, must plan for the future, and that sure is a hellish lot to plan for. Anyway, felt kinda bad and guilty while we were walking around cuz we were laughing at some of our ex schoolmates who unfortunately got pregnant out of wedlock. Actually it was only one person, but we linked that one person to so many others of the same race, that it turned out to be damn funny and darn insulting and obviously totally untrue. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm still laughing out hard in my head just thinking about it. Oh my God!!! LOL! Haha...

Jo left soon after, and MK and I just bummed around, with me being totally cranky and rolling my eyes zillions of times as usual. We went window shopping, record listening, (the Lilith Fair CD at HMV is now going at $3.95, and MK actually bought it for $30++ the last time! HAHAHA!), internet surfing at some comp shop (MK only, and it was a total rip-off) and basically just chilling out on an extremely hot and humid Saturday afternoon. Argh... In the end I bought a t-shirt and a polo tee from 37 Degrees, and we went dinner at this place called Rocky Master. I surprisingly treated MK to some drink called Mango Frost (or something like that) cuz he didn't eat dinner as he was full. HAHA... I'm so shocked at my actions! Anyway, had penne with pesto sauce and sundried tomatoes for dinner, and it was mmmmm.... except for the pathetic, puny serving. Urgh. Oh well, I sure wish he'll get me something good when he gets to Hong Kong on Monday. Hee hee.

Went home soon after dinner. I actually wasted about 20 minutes waiting for the lame ass bus that never came. In the end, I walked to City Hall MRT and took the bloody train home. Should've done that from the start right?! *rolls eyes*

Just a final shameless note. I know people do read my blogs, but they seldom comment. So, to all my faithful readers out there, please kindly post your comments if you've anything to say to prove a certain person's word wrong cuz he claims that I have no friends. HAHA...

I'm hungry again... So regretting not going for the buffet dinner that my parents went to tonight. My mom told me there was satay, shark's fin, laksa, etc etc... *drool*

I'm going fridge raiding now.

Gv complained @ 10:32 PM

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Friday, January 02, 2004

Mood: Extremely tired
Song: Sugababes - New Year

Right, it's a new year. Resolutions, goals, wishes, whatever. I'm not sure whether I'm gonna make them this year because I know I almost never keep them. I mean, my usual resolutions usually include trying to be less cynical, more patient, less demanding, more empathetic, etc etc... all those impossibilities that I'm trying ever so hard to achieve. So this year, I intend to forgo them all. At least until I've sorta settled down into 2004 or something. I'm still subconsciously in the 2003 era. Besides I think I've dissed enough people during the course of the first 2 days that even if I'd made resolutions, they would've already been heavily broken. So there's no point right? Might as well forget it until my mind is settled or something.

Got kinda affected today when I got caught by lame-ass HQ CSM Huge-Prominent-Ugly-Mole-On-The-Forehead for wearing ankle socks in the office. I mean like duh *rolls eyes profusely*... please. For such a mundane little mistake? (I'm not sure if I could even call it a mistake. Oh please.) Anyway, I don't really understand myself. I was sorta thinking about it the whole day (well, not really the whole day, but at certain times the incident would just float into my mind) and I just do not understand why such a small stupid little thing would affect me so much. (I'm still pondering, by the way. But I'm trying to forget it.) Which reminds me, that lame-ass has got such a lame-ass ill-bred little daughter who can't stop whining in the cinema when my whole company went to watch LOTR a couple of weeks back. That little brat totally spoilt the show at some points! Urgh. I shall not be judgemental here (another one of my resolutions), but I guess when I described her as being ill-bred, I'd already contradicted myself. Whatever. Such people do not deserve any attention (not even negative) from me. *rolls eyes again*

Went for my ex-company reunion bbq earlier at East Coast. A total waste of time as usual. But nonetheless, I wouldn't have gotten a long weekend tomorrow if it isn't for the outing. So I guess I should be thankful? Hmmm... needs some serious consideration. Anyway, was kinda glad to see some of my platoon mates whom I haven't seen in a while... So I guess it was rather worthwhile, sans the time wastage cuz of absolutely nothing constructing to do.

Oh well, a new year brings forth new hope. Sincerely, I wish that this year would be a good and experiential one, since it's also a transitional year for me, what with me ORDing and entering university. I guess I'd better prepare myself mentally, no?

Gv complained @ 9:20 PM

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