Saturday, February 21, 2004

Mood: Reluctant
Song: Mariah Carey - Open Arms

So, my first week as an official adult. Workload was heavy as usual, more expectations, more responsibilities, more bugging from people, more pissed off at certain tactless assholes, whatever. Life is ironically going downhill despite the fact that my ORD's drawing closer with each passing minute. Perhaps this is one of the paradoxes of time. When the urge is so strong, the goal seems just so far away. Perhaps I should relax and learn to take each day as it comes. Just leave my goals for now.

Watched Lost In Translation on Thursday and on the surface it seemed like such a boring old show with no evident plotline, no prominent action, basically nothing spectacular in terms of visuals. Yet, the power of silence in the show was so overwhelming that I'm somehow drawn to the irregularities of the characters and the subtleties that the film possessed. It's the friendship between the lead characters that somehow made me reflect on my own life. I feel like I'm doing what the characters in the film do, everyday. Just feeling bored of the present circumstances and wanting so much for a dramatic upheaval. Yet we're bounded by these such circumstances that we can't do much. Just like in the end when Bill Murray's character returns to the US, and Scarlet Johanssen's Charlotte awaits for the return of her husband. Sad huh?

Another sad part of my boring life. I watched Irreversible today. Reminded me of the Blair Witch Project and Memento, what with the always changing camera angles, and the story going in reverse. Anyway, it was just an okay film for me. I thought it was rather plain and straightforward in terms of the plot, and I didn't really flinch a bit when the rude and violent parts came on. Just gritting my teeth and feeling a little put off by the gruesome acts. Like disfiguring a face relentlessly with a fire extinguisher and of course the controversial Monica Bellucci's rape scene. Basically she was just sodomised and had her face smashed against the floor, and she came out of the ordeal being all bloody. That's all. Seriously I don't know what the hype was all about.

I really feel that my life's sucky at this point. Just watching movie after movie, and yet perversely I sorta enjoy doing this. I really can't bring myself to be that adventurous and be experimental at this point of time.

Gv complained @ 11:31 PM

{xoxo}