Thursday, March 25, 2004

Mood: Looking forward...
Song: Tori Amos - Winter

Time zooms by and it'll be almost the weekend tomorrow. I'm almost suffocating to the neck here in camp, and I can't wait (really) to leave this place in a flurry. There're so many outstanding things I need done and they can only be so once my presence is not to be demanded in this place. Oh well, patience pays I guess. Just wondering why some others have it so much better than me, but the world isn't fair, and it's not round either.

Gv complained @ 9:18 PM

{xoxo}

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

Mood: Pissed but getting slightly better
Song: Tori Amos - 1000 Oceans

I give up on uneducated "know-it-alls" who do nothing all day but patronise others in a condescending manner. Oh please. Not that I want to discriminate, but sometimes these people should be put where they belong. That is, not together with me.

I feel my energy slowly ebbing away with this slow imprisonment in camp. I guess I gotta grit my teeth and withstand the remainder before salvation comes along.

It is just soooo long.

Gv complained @ 6:43 PM

{xoxo}

Monday, March 22, 2004

Mood: Nauseated
Song: Tori Amos - A Sorta Fairytale

Food poisons my being and I'm left feeling like a void. Remedy's working but not to the magnitude that I expected. I so desire the former that I had.

Georgette was doing this hard-selling to me for the past few days. I really see no use for it. I won't budge.

All that you love will be carried away.

Gv complained @ 2:31 PM

{xoxo}

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

I feel like such a follower sometimes. Or maybe just to irk the hell out of some people. They really deserve it.

Gv complained @ 3:22 PM

{xoxo}

Sunday, March 14, 2004

How much does life weigh?

Finished watching 21 Grams last night and it got me thinking about the repercussions that people leave behind after they die. Morbid I know, but perhaps that is what the movie wants to trigger off in people. They say we lose 21 grams at the exact moment of our death, supposed to be the weight of our soul. So little, so light, but yet the cost of our death is so heavy to our friends and loved ones. Losing 21 grams when we die does not only refer to the soul, but the part that is lost in other people when loved ones die. If the soul is what contains all these things, why does it weigh so little if it's such a big part of us?

I feel like living in a mental asylum whenever the uneducated, uncouth, barbaric and totally crass HQ CSM is around in camp. The ultimate was yesterday when he came into the office and started criticising and citing the untidiness of the office. Like he has any authority to do such an act. And spewing mouthful after mouthful of broken English, nonstop, like a mechanical toy gone haywire really made us want to pull our hair out. And the sad fact was that no one could do anything about it. He just made me despise him even more. I really feel like disclosing his indebtedness to the authorities. That'll definitely get him into a hell lot of investigation procedures and grant us peace for a while, but I'm not sure how to do it. Fancy someone like him setting such a "fine" example borrowing money from people to satisfy his unrefined love for the night clubs and bars. Ooh I just wanna tell on him.

I miss my mobile. Sent it for repair yesterday cuz of an insensitive button that's been bothering me since last year. It'll take a couple of days and most probably I'll collect it tomorrow. But in the meantime I'll just have to settle for my mom's fashionable Xelibri. Haha...

Gv complained @ 4:57 PM

{xoxo}

Monday, March 01, 2004

Sex And The City's conclusive monologue by Carrie Bradshaw:

"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships.
There are those that open you up to something new and exotic.
Those that are old and familiar.
Those that bring up lots of questions.
Those that bring you somewhere unexpected.
Those that bring you far from where you started.
And those that bring you back.
But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself.
And if you find someone to love the you you love
Well, that's just fabulous."

I am definitely gonna miss that show. And what Carrie said was so true. I definitely agree with her that the most significant and challenging relationship is the one I have with myself. It took a long while for me to understand what I am like, my preferences, my queries, my fears, my loathes, my habits, my emotions, my style, my everything. Yet I've not entirely conquered it all. There're still some loopholes somewhere here and there that are still unknown to me. Most importantly I guess being true and at peace with myself is the most significant. I doubt I've achieved that. I'm always getting angry with myself and being pissed off about things that I know I have no control over. It's hard having a relationship with yourself.

And a digression, Charlize Theron won the Oscar for Best Actress in a Leading Role! I'm so gonna watch the show tomorrow if possible!!! I was somewhat rooting for Naomi Watts to win though. Oh well, at least Charlize got the recognition she deserved. I guess I'm "attracted" to such "dark" shows about social misfits and those that deal with the serious issues of life like drugs, violence, rape, anything but war. I don't know what it is, but war doesn't work for me. I watched Saving Private Ryan, I watched Cold Mountain, and they just didn't evoke much emotion in me. I know they're epics, but the themes behind the movies just don't grip me. Maybe it's got to do with the fact that I'm serving the bloody country, and I don't like it? Hmmm... a point to ponder. LOL.

Gv complained @ 1:26 PM

{xoxo}