Sunday, October 31, 2004

Mood: Saturated
Song: Ashlee Simpson - Shadow

I'm having my exams on Tuesday and I feel that I've reached saturation. Not that I'm a serious mugger whatsoever, I'm nowhere near that, but I feel that I can't seem to process any more information into my itsy bitsy teeny weeny brain. Sigh... Whiling away the time on my computer, and re-reading my textbooks, lecture notes, everything... And I can't seem to register any new information! Urgh.

I want my holidays now!

Gv complained @ 7:08 PM

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Friday, October 22, 2004

Mood: Elated, sorta accomplished...
Song: Stefanie Sun - Wo De Ai (New song! She's back!!! Yay!)

Yay, just came back from MINDS (Movement for the Intellectually Disabled) Jurong Gardens School earlier after finally executing my community project required for one of my modules, Singapore Society. Well, it was quite heartwarming to see those special kids, and they actually will smile and interact with you. Totally changed my initial perception of such people. Not that I'm discriminating or whatsoever, but sometimes I feel that society does not really give much attention to the intellectually disabled. I mean, yes, everyone knows about NKF patients and their dialysis treatments and pain, etc, but how many people actually know about the intellectually disabled? Some will even shun away from them when they are in public or call them retarded behind their backs. I know I am not the most altruistic or saintly person in the world (read: me=bitch) but sometimes I feel that more attention and awareness need to be showered upon them. Was so totally surprised when all of them came to shake our hands and thank us after the event.

Anyway, really felt accomplished when we left the MINDS school gates with my group members and the volunteers from Tanglin Secondary School. Phew! Like today felt so surreal cuz we weren't really anticipating this event to really take off. We faced so many countless limitations during the planning and liaising stages that we were almost oblivious to even the harshest of the bad news, should any come our way. Oh my, loads came our way, and they were actually not our fault. First of all, we couldn't find any suitable secondary schools initially to accept our project proposal. At long last, we settled on Tanglin Secondary. We were like soooo elated. Anyway, some MINDS students came down with scabies shortly after (a contagious skin disease), and we had to almost call off the event, cuz the school was under quarantine by the Ministry of Health. And during this period of time, it was basically a lull cuz there was nothing we could so. Soooo helpless. And there were more pieces of bad news to come, which I don't feel like elaborating. It came to the point where my whole tutorial group was concerned about our project. Everyone was like perpetually asking, "Hey, how's your 111 going?" And we'll just laugh it off cuz we had no freaking idea what was to be done, since everything was out of our control. It was not even our fault! At least if it was, we could have done something to rectify it. But too bad... it wasn't. Haha... But at least, after all this crap that we endured, we emerged more experienced in dealing with organizations, and also am more aware of the intellectually disabled, which I felt was really enriching. Now the only hurdle left is the 40-page report to be submitted next week. Oh well, after having fun, some (or actually, a lot) of work has to be done.

Exams are in like a week's time! Argh! Haven't really prepared much since I was busy doing stuff for the MINDS project during most of this week, and also my other research project on idol-chasing and MTV. I felt so disadvantaged when we were analysing our survey results on that research that day since I didn't do maths in JC, and have no freaking clue about statistics. Then Charis and Irwin were like trying to explain to me what is null hypothesis, chi-square, etc... and I really tuned out. Ewww.. so hate maths and this stats thing has re-lighted my long forgotten grudge against the revolting subject. Hmm.... But I will survive... Or at least struggle cuz I have to do my part of the research report! LOL. I will so not be nullified by null hypothesis!

Suddenly I am looking forward to Christmas. I so need the holidays, the actual no-school-at-all holidays. But in the meantime, I will and must get over the dreaded exams first. It's time to revive the mugging spirit!

Gv complained @ 8:05 PM

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Saturday, October 09, 2004

Mood: Sick, pissed off, yada yada...
Song: Joss Stone - I've Fallen In Love With You

Doesn't really feel like the weekend, even though it supposedly is. Started sneezing in the morning and it has lasted the whole damn day, and my nose is like perpetually blocked. Ha. I think it's the surroundings that are causing all this, loads and loads of bad air. Never experienced it anywhere else except at home. Sounds kind of ironic, but it's how bloody true. *sniffle sniffle*

Reformatted my Toshiba on Thursday, the day when I was supposed to study and everything cuz I'd shifted my 2 Thursday tutorials to other days of the week. Ha, turned out, I spent the whole day trying to get rid of some shitty virus that had somehow wormed its inconspicuous way into my hard drive. In the end, I had to call the friendly people at Toshiba International to get it settled. But at least it's sorta worth it. I'm like starting on a fresh, new palette and I really think I'll need that. Sometimes I feel that I'm downloading too much crap, but just don't have the heart to delete them.

So pissed off at the current state of affairs at the moment. And it's not even my fault!

Gv complained @ 11:29 PM

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Sunday, October 03, 2004

Mood: Tired, sore, a lil sunburnt
Song: Hoobastank - The Reason

I know it's highly unlikely that I will say this, but I will still say it anyway. Canvassing was kinda fun! There goes the positivity that others so positively crave for me to display. Meiji and Shimin were like perpetually saying that I give off negative vibes everywhere I go, which I admit, is true to a "small" extent. Maybe just. I guess I don't really portray the optimistic happy-go-lucky person that people so often want to see in such a cynical world. But sometimes I wish that others would just let me be the person that I want to be without any expectations whatsoever. Oh well, perhaps I should plaster a smile on my face wherever I go now. This is the first time in my whole bloody life that I'm hearing such negativity about my supposed negativity. Haha.

I discovered scratches on my Toshiba lappie last night! Argh! There goes the sleek, silver perfection of the outer casing. Don't even have any idea how the dreaded scratches came to reside permanently on my beloved laptop. It will go down with time, I hope. Both literally and metaphorically. I will eventually accept it. Anyway, it's not that obvious. I guess I'm just too much a perfectionist, scrutinizing every single angle of it. Or maybe I just didn't notice it in the first place. Oh never mind. Gonna bring it to school tomorrow. Sure hope the wireless works after my configuration. Don't ever wanna tediously copy down Chopra's endless lecture notes again on pen and paper when I have the supposed luxury of typing it effortlessly into my word processor. Hehe...

Someone just reminded me that exams are exactly a month away. Urgh... Still unsure of whether I wanna register for the inter-semester thingy. Can't imagine myself going back to school during hols. But then again, I don't wanna have a too packed timetable with loads of useless general electives when I can clear them earlier. Will think about it tomorrow when the add-drop period starts. Don't wanna stress my already brainless brain right now.

Another stressful school day starts tomorrow. But I don't think I want it any other way. I'm soooo... contradicting sometimes.

Gv complained @ 8:30 PM

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

Mood: Early morning blues
Song: Maroon 5 - This Love

Oh yeah, watched White Chicks unexpectedly yesterday after school at Jurong Point. I can't believe that my life has now stopped, and it's just revolving around NTU and Jurong Point. This is so unlike me! Not that I'm constantly going down to town for havoc or stuff, but somehow I feel that I'm living some hermit life these days. The upside is that I am saving money! For what... I don't know. Hopefully I will get the urge to want to get to town again. Need more clothes. Haha, I'm becoming a perennial outfit repeater and I don't want that.

Back to the White Chicks movie. I'm surprised it was actually, truly funny in some parts. I was so totally against stupid slapstick fluff in the past (and I still am, actually), but yesterday I took a cautioned risk to watch it when Colin suggested cuz there weren't any other good shows to watch and the gang of us were bored and didn't wanna go home. Anyway, it started out rather unfunny, and I was literally falling asleep in the chair. But after the two leads cross-dressed as female socialites, it started to perk me up. And the show so reminded me of Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie in The Simple Life. So duh, "bimbotic" and brainless! LOL. I guess I just needed some laughter after the numerous stoic school days that I've been having.

Finally did the Comm. Research presentation yesterday during lecture. Urgh. Think we saw a frown on Wai Peng and Corinne's faces when Irwin was speaking. Irrelevance I guess. But then again, Meiji reminded me that Wai Peng perpetually has a frown on her face throughout everyone's presentations so perhaps we need not fret too much. Oh well, the temporal piece of good news is that it is over and we gotta move on to our next project! Bittersweet I guess. But I think I'll enjoy doing the next project more since we chose to do idol-chasing, which is so much fun better than the one we just presented on speech classes and verbal communication. How the hell did we come up with that boring topic anyway?! We need to have more creative brainstorming sessions next time.

Gotta do this stupid canvassing thing at Jurong West area tomorrow. So hate to go door-to-door to solicit newspapers and crap just like some garang guni man. But then again, I can't back out now since I didn't go for the last one. When everyone else was busying sweating and getting bored under the hot sun, Meiji and I were galavanting around in Tampines Mall. Haha... but I'm still gonna try to leave early if possible. Hehe... never refuse any opportunity to skive.

Gv complained @ 10:39 AM

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