Saturday, July 28, 2007

Lan Xang kingdom - land of a million elephants.

Seven centuries later - Laos.

I will be flying there tomorrow for a week, as part of a journalism programme to experience life as a foreign correspondent.

More bites and probable daily updates here: http://gofar2007.wordpress.com

Till then.

Gv complained @ 1:46 AM

{xoxo}

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

And so we talked about death.

I guess we were feeling sorta emo tonight, and just spoke about all the 'what ifs' that life can throw at us.

What song we would like played at our funerals.
Our emotions when we attend them.
How nice it would be to be simple-minded sometimes, to live in a world of self-induced happiness that cruel and cynical reality can never penetrate.
How our narcissism and materialism are just means of escapism.
Being addicted to Prozac, Valium or other 'happy' pills.

As we approach our quarter life crisis next year (or rather, I call it one-third life crisis, since it is almost impossible that I would live to a hundred), I can't help but think about how unaccomplished I am at this point of time. Sure there may be others who are worse off, but I guess I've not looked back since the day I decided to pursue certain goals. People change, some may even disappoint. Things almost never work out the way you want them to. It sucks to see how others can shatter the hope that you hold, just like the way you were fearing that it would turn out.

I yearn for childhood innocence. Just my action figurines, Lego bricks and weekend morning cartoons.

Gv complained @ 11:18 PM

{xoxo}

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I got murdered last night.

In my dreams.

I am one who vaguely remembers my dreams. Somehow, even though I would remember vividly every minute detail the moment I wake up, everything would be lost once the grogginess dissipates.

Anyway, the gist is, I felt like an actor in a B-grade horror movie. Was walking around in a building, and each time I opened a door, the same guy would walk through, take a look at me, and then walk on. However, for the last time, he lunged at me, and stabbed me in the left gut.

I could actually feel the pain from the blade. And I think I died after that.

Maybe I should start looking at dream analysis.

Gv complained @ 8:17 PM

{xoxo}

Monday, January 15, 2007

So Close (I believe)

Whenever this song plays, I feel touched that You will never let me go. All the harrowing thoughts and circumstances can only make me stronger.

Just watched Pan's Labyrinth earlier. The escapist in me just wants to follow Ofelia into the labyrinth and indulge in the fantasy parallel. Sure, the real world may be guns and war, but I so much prefer the magic in the dark fairy tale. Just a sucker for such medieval stuff.

Getting used to the routine of work. Strangely I don't miss school. Yet.

Gv complained @ 12:19 AM

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

What I want written on record before the year ends. :)

I'm thankful for:
1) Good health
Don't recall having visited the doctor once in this whole year. Sure, there was the occasional flu or fever, but none of which were not curable with a couple of Panadols. And a lot of sleep. ;P

2) Patience from family
I am short-tempered and demanding, and I know that such traits have sometimes unwittingly offended some of those around me. But I am grateful to Mom and Dad for their ever-increasing patience, to let me discover things on my own, and for trusting me to do what I want.

3) Ting'les and etc
For listening to my woes and complaints over drinks at Holland V's Tango's. It has become our regular hangout, and I'm glad that you people are in my life.

Most importantly,
4) His grace and mercy
Many times I've faltered and lost my way, or in supposed dire circumstances that I felt I couldn't resolve on my own. I am grateful to Him for showing me the way, and guiding me with His unfailing love.

Internship beckons and I must rid myself of the reluctance to get my ass off the couch.
I shall become a pro at photocopying, filing, and making coffee. ;P

Gv complained @ 7:59 PM

{xoxo}

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Tis' the exam period, and I am feeling restless. Unmotivated and distracted. Jaded even.

And it doesn't really help much when there is tension, of which I don't even know how it came about.

I will resolve this after the exams.

But a piece of unexpected news came by today that totally swept me off my feet. I'm glad. And it really is an indication that I am loved despite all the judgment from everyone else.

Thank You.

"... that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who called you out of the darkness into His marvelous light." - 1 Peter 2:9

Gv complained @ 7:18 PM

{xoxo}

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power,
But by the spirit of God.

Yes I will run the race,
Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace.

Gv complained @ 1:42 PM

{xoxo}